Eryn Shewell - lyrics

Beloved Goodbyes
(Eryn Shewell, Pat Ruh)

Were you really here
Or are you gone
I’ve been dreaming of you
For so long
If we stay here long enough
Will we become one

I will never forget
Your rose petal skin
As I agonize what
Could have been
Was I fooling myself all this time
Will anyone ever see our sad love story unwind

My soul screams for us tonight
I’m drowning and can’t quite reach through
I don’t think I’ll ever be alright
I hope this means something to you
But I know I’ll never rest
Untill your out of my mind
Those tears of beloved goodbyes
That I cried in your eyes

You showed me something
I didn’t think was possible
Completely revealed myself to you
I hope you see inside
A little better now
You can’t lie when it’s that true

Don’t You See
(Eryn Shewell / Pat Ruh)

I know you want the best for me
But I can’t take the job in Chicago
I know your anger is very likely
But I'll deal with that tomorrow

Don't you see what this means to me
I'm not wasting time in dream land
Don't you see what this does to me
I just wish you could understand

My brother I do love you so
But money isn't what matters
What good, what good does it to
If my prosperity shatters

I can't ignore my hearts cries
Or the passion leaking from my eyes
I live for the melody's that come from my soul
That create the songs that makes me whole

So I'm going to continue this trail
And I'm refusing the easy way out
No matter the endeavors it entails
To live this life with no doubt

Satellite
(Eryn Shewell / Pat Ruh)

I've been strung strung strung with a real big string
I've been strung strung strung with a real big string
I know my eye was blinded by the needle
I didn't see the paint dripping from the easel
I was strung

You were like a satellite
Evil eyes never lost sight
an over boiling cauldron
with no sense of direction

you were like a tongue
causing my dignity to be wrung
a movable muscular process
swallowing the food of obsess

I've been strung strung strung with a real big string
I've been strung strung strung with a real big string
I know my eye was blinded by the needle
I didn't see the paint dripping from the easel
I was strung

You can't mold my reputation
your characters already smeared
you can't break my concentration
your characters already smeared

300 Miles
(Eryn Shewell / Kristin Kelly)

I see your face so far from your thoughts
Like confused trains tumbling off their tracks
Empty eyes staring away from your heart
300 miles till you come back

Loneliness has been a friend of mine
He travels as far away as you can go
Not further than love but further than time
300 miles he wont be what I find

You see my face so near to my tears
Sometimes I hear what you want to say
Hurting is hard but also feared
When I’m loving you 300 miles away

My Soul
(Eryn Shewell / Jay Feinen)

I don’t know why I cry when I listen to your words
Sometimes I hide inside another World
I don’t respect the girl in the mirror
I wanna forget that I have to be her

You make me feel like I’m not real in your eyes
Oh but I fear your not hearing my cries
And my esteem is not all you control
You have my soul

I don’t know why I feel you lie within your kiss
Sometimes I fear to hear your opinion on this
And all this time I spent on getting along
Please don’t make me feel like this is wrong

Perfection
(Eryn Shewell)

You are my perfection
Absolute like the open ocean
Entirely without any flaws
Exactly the need for a certain cause

You are the only one for me
You are my destiny don’t you see
My soul weeps that your not mine
And I can’t erase you from my mind

What am I to do
Continue to cry over you
Leave perfection behind
Or hope you come around in time
What am I to do
Continue to dream about you
Lock my heart away for protection
Or just wait for my perfection

I wish I could crawl inside your brain
To pry out if you feel the same
To perceive me through your eyes
And your eyes through mine

You are my puzzle piece
You are the lock for my key
You are so perfectly true
Am I perfection for you

I Already Wrote The Song
(Eryn Shewell)

I already wrote the song
how I’m feeling right now
I already wrote the song
how I’m feeling right now
Nothings changed and I don’t know how
Feeling the same way for so long

I was young and lost then
Young and confused now
I was young and lost then
Young and confused now
Will it change I don’t know how
Feeling the same way once again

I’ve gone through so many binds
Which path do I follow
I’ve gone through so many binds
Which path do I follow
Running while I’m hallow
Feeling the same way this time

Moment
(Eryn Shewell, Pat Ruh)

My heart shattered for a moment
Just one little moment
When I misunderstood you
What it was that you meant
But in that moment
What one little moment
I had the worst moment in my life

An unkind interval in time
Just an instant I wished for rewind
A brief bit I must admit
But the dread I tasted was legit

Could this be this misery
Tell me something that could not be
Don’t you see the pain in me
You turned my heart into a zombie

I Would Wait Forever
(Eryn Shewell)

Three more days till I see your face
When I wont be in misery
You’ve been gone so long I fill my fears with tears
I started to fall off the top of my wall

How much longer can I wait today
I want to hear your sighs after kissing your eyes
All this time you thought I was feeling fine
You should always remember
I would wait forever

Three more days till you go alone
It’s time to start missing you again
You know you stole my heart easily away
Bring it back when you decide to stay

Candle
(Eryn Shewell / Pat Ruh / Jody Joseph)

Listening to the rain
We sat there in the kitchen
Writing down our pain
Trying to make a vision
Playing our guitars
We wrote music together
Singing at those bars
Trying to make things better

You helped me through all those hard times
You were my candle You were there at midnight
In the darkest hours before the light
You were the answer without the questions
You turned me around in the right direction

Writing down those words
You reached into my heart
Digging up what hurts
Hell that’s the hardest part
Lessons to be lived
We learned from our mistakes
Now it’s time to forgive
Myself from my own fate

Work So Hard
(Eryn Shewell, Pat Ruh)

I’m so lost with each day
I dream of much more than just this
I wish to travel far away
Where I kiss the days that I miss

I work so hard
To try and reach my dreams
But it always seems it’s just to far
The further I get
The further I dream
The further I reach
The further it seems
But I work so hard
To try to reach my dreams

I’m so frustrated with this place
The worlds race is oh so fast
I can’t win at this pace
Can I please taste this at last

I’m starting to really hate this game
And the shame falling with the rain
The same shame of learning my name
I wish the rain washed away my pain

Whiskey Devil
(Eryn Shewell / Pat Ruh)

Why you been hangin round hangin round that whiskey devil
I don’t know why I’ve been hangin round that whiskey devil
You know when that man come round you ain’t got nothing but trouble

Don’t let your guard down baby he wants to take gods gift away
You know I don’t want him to take gods gift away
Leave him behind now and get down on your knees and play

Nothing is gained yet so much is lost
Drinkin away those blues just aint worth the cost
Liquor and hard livin should never be crossed
I did all I could but that devil ain’t no good
He’s mean and he’s bad your nasty and mad

Anymore
Eryn Shewell

Why do you take so long
To put yourself together
Why am I waiting for
You to think it through
Why do you take so long

You have the chance to be strong
But it seems like you take forever
Wasting your life away
Don’t know what else to say
You have the chance to be strong

Life’s not getting any faster
You can’t just swing the door open anymore
Life’s not getting any faster
You can’t just walk through your life
Anymore

I Don’t Know
Eryn Shewell / Jody Joseph

I'm so lost in my world
I can't find my way out
This confused little girl
Who's heart needs to cry out

Tears running down my face
I'm sick and tired of keeping up this pace

I don't know who I am
Could this be another broken heart again
I don't know who I am
I don't know what I'm looking for
Afraid to walk back through that door again

You don't know me at all
And the way that I love the rain
Why I've built all these walls
And where I carry the blame

I wait in the dark every day
Waiting for someone to sweep this pain away

I don't know who I am
Could this be another broken heart again
I don't know who I am
I don't know what I'm looking for
Afraid to walk back through that door again

The Lonely Writer
Eryn Shewell

I lit up the candles and sang out of tune
Had about all I can handle now I’m thinking of you
Curled up in a chair needing to write a song
I pulled back my hair but was asleep before long

What am I doing
Am I crazy
Spinning in circles kinda crazy thing

I need you and I’m loving you
I’m doing just what feels right
And that’s what I’m doing

I had a silvered dream everything is still gray
The coffee rises with steam as memories get their own way
Underneath stormy weather and a staring moon
Sits a lonely writer whose guitar is not tuned

Window Pane
Eryn Shewell / Pat Ruh

I watch our play through the window pane
I read the lines with no shame
The band plays music from our sonata
But I want no end to this saga
I see you through this window pane
I love you through our window pane
Our window pane

Your lips and eyes never leave my mind
I smell your skin in my dreams
But I know I’ll never have you this time
Or play the part in this scene

I’ve learned how to admire from afar
Through this invisible looking glass
Didn’t think it would be so hard
To play the part I’ve been cast

I watch our play through the window pane
I read the lines with no shame
The band plays music from our sonata
But I want no end to this saga
I see you through this window pane
I love you through our window pane
Our window pane

I know my role in this story
Though I wish I controlled the quill
But then it wouldn’t be called a mystery
And my name would be on the playbill

I watch our play through the window pane
I read the lines with no shame
The band plays music from our sonata
But I want no end to this saga
I see you through this window pane
I love you through our window pane
Our window pane

One Song at a Time
Eryn Shewell / Jody Joseph

Have you ever been in love
Have you ever felt that feeling
The feeling that you get
When you’re amazed at what you’re hearing

Have you ever heard snow fall
Or God whispering through the trees
Within subtle simplicity is heaven’s harmony

Every song is like a book marker
Within the pages of our lives
And although some we choose to forget
Thoughts of memory seem paralyzed

Every word every melody
So subtle so strong
It is a prayer and a plea
And angel’s rhapsody
We can change the world
One song at a time

Soon You Will Fly
Eryn Shewell

I used to love you
The way that you love me
But now when I see you
My heart is only empty

I didn’t want hurt you
But I really can’t stay
I can’t give up on myself
You’ll realize why one day

Please don’t cry, understand why
I don’t want to live in a lie
Please don’t cry or hide inside
One wing is broken, no word can be spoken
Soon you will fly, please don’t cry

It’s not that I don’t care
I just had to keep going
Our memories are still there
For our lives to keep flowing

We’ll roll over this bump
But our road is not ending
We have split at this fork
To start a new beginning

Please don’t cry, understand why
I don’t want to live in a lie
Please don’t cry or hide inside
One wing is broken, no word can be spoken
Soon you will fly, please don’t cry

Oh, Oh You
Eryn Shewell / Jody Joseph

Oh, oh you
That's what you say when you look at me
Oh, oh you
With a twinkle in your eye at me
Oh, oh you
You give me that I adore you
I'm so sure you love me look too
Oh, oh you

I'll always remember the first time I saw your cerulean eyes
The door bell rang at the stroke of nine
Forgetting my last goodbyes I opened the door to fate
Something inside me moved when I saw your face

Chorus

How could I ever forget the day you opened my heart
Oh my knees turned to jelly and my walls fell apart
When I look at those lips blessed be your sweet, sweet kiss
Oh what an amazing trip to fall in love like this

Chorus

When you walked out of my dreams
My body melted on the floor
You whispered oh, oh you
I couldn't ask for anything more

One More Melody
Eryn Shewell / Pat Ruh

Sand paper skin below my eyes
Tears running off my chin
Blood shot whites a runny nose
And my head hurts from the lights

One more melody, one more time
Before I leave this world
One more melody, one more time
Last words from this sad girl
One more melody, one more time

Dull point pencil writing pointless words
Thoughts aren’t as simple
You can’t reason with an upset mind
Reason can only darken

One more melody, one more time
Before I leave this world
One more melody, one more time
Last words from this sad girl
One more melody, one more time

Just One of Those Days
Eryn Shewell / Jody Joseph

Just one of those days when everything goes wrong
Just one of those days when time seems too long
Just one of those days when all you do is cry
Just one of those days when you don’t know why
None of the happiness stays
It’s just one of those days

I can’t seem to run away from trouble
It follows me everywhere I go
In the wrong place at the right time
It’s turning in to one of those days I know

Chorus

They don’t care enough to come and see me play
Don’t they know how much I need them here
It’s not the same if I can’t share it anyway
I don’t want just one of those days

Chorus

Storm
Eryn Shewell / Jody Joseph

I’m starting to fall again
Down the spiral staircase of my heart
My thoughts can't get a grip
What a rush when something starts

Do I dare smile back at you
Like I did with him
Can I peak inside
Without seeing his disguise
Do I dare to try again

I’m ending all mystery
That I do love you like summer storms
They roll in a little scary
And always leave you wanting more
New beginnings like virgin snow
When it melts you never know

The Goodbye Song
Eryn Shewell / Jody Joseph

I don’t want to leave your side
To a world as black as space
But my feet are cold and the sky won’t cry
As my heart falls out of place

I don’t ever want to see you again
Was just my weapon at the time
It all hit me at once when I
Looked into your eyes

It all comes down to surface talk
See you around sometime
Standing behind our paper walls
We said goodbye
One too many times

I never got around
To taking your pictures down
They’re just frozen faces on stages
From a part I played before

It all comes down to surface talk
How are you, I'm fine
Standing behind our paper walls
We said goodbye
One too many times

I’m dangling a string
Of the finest silky thread
And I’m sitting here in the
Center of your web

I Want You for Breakfast
Eryn Shewell / Kristin Kelly

There is no where to go
The kids aren't home, it's a cold and rainy forecast
Forget the chores, turn off the phone
Interruptions only distract

So before we worry about the stresses of today
Let’s make memories that'll last
They say it's the best meal of the day

I want you for breakfast
We can cook some eggs but
I really want you for breakfast
Yeah let’s cook some eggs
You know I like them sunny side up

Pour some wine, now
I know it's early dear
But I wanna slow down our time

I love when you hold me
While I'm cookin’ up love for you in my fry pan
Thank God for cold rain
On this Sunday mornin' wide awake

I want you for breakfast
Yeah we go together like bacon and eggs
Like breakfast
Let's get cookin’ babe, no time to waste

I love when you hold me
While I'm cookin’ up love for you in my fry pan
Thank God for cold rain
On this Sunday mornin’ wide awake